waha... so honoured to noe tt yuwei actually visited my blog!! and...now i shall blog especially for u hor...so dun say i nv update my blog...haaz..=p

yay...finally came home early today...coz for the past few days i've been stayin back in sch either for chem consultations or self study...life for me is jus so bland...haiz...

i think i'm gettin more n more despo for sleep! oh man...if i were given 2 choices, i wld definitely choose to slp instead of food!! even if expensive delicacies r display rite infront of me..!haa......gosh...i'm getting slpy now...shall update nxt time round...taaz...

yesterday was a memorable nite for me...i had actually stand on stage to perform a song--> "xing yu xin yue"...this is wat i wun b seein myself doin it in the past...but now, i had overcome this fear...n i'm quite proud of tt although i'm not the 1st 3...haaz...1st time on stage as a soloist can be really frightening...lolx..at least now i hav another valuable experience because of this mooncake festive singin contest, i noe tt my surrounding frens r very supportive...i'm feeling so lucky to hav them ard...=) special thanks to all my wonderful frens...they r--chou kit, yan chun, minxuan, seet ee, van, stephy, qun bao, minjie...wah alot leh...so pls pardon me if i miss out any1...heez..they kept tellin me not to b nervous...keke...but i still was...ahaz..after my performance, they keep sayin tt i was gd to make me feel better...=) after the event of the day ended...it's already ard 10pm le...i still dun d feel like goin home, so i went to the celebration outside the yis mrt station will yan chun they all...played some candles n fireworks...lol...all thanks to the resourceful chou kit for buying n payin for everything...haaz...

reached home at 12am...then went to remove the troublesome makeup! aha...

i really hate pw!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it has seriously piss me off!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DAMN IT!!!!!!!!!!!!! pardon me for using unpleasant words...........haiz..................... = (

damn...jus quarrelled with my dad...i really cant tolerate guys who r da nan ren zhu yi!!!!!!!!!! everything he wans he mus get it... assume everything he's rite n others r always wrong!! this is incredibly unreasonable loh...haiz...nv put himself in other's ppl shoe n spare a thot for them...haiz...sad ah...i wonder how my mum can tolerate his da nan ren zhu yi........i salute her loh...haa...

well...now i hav learn to keep quiet whenever an arguement is goin to start btw my parents n i...jus keep quiet...all i jus do is to swallow all these anger n frustrations.....coz i cant let it out, whenever i almst let it out, i'll b starting a quarrel....haa.......so i shall stay slient........as slience as possible....my mum says my temper is getting worse....haiz.......

i hate PW..........it's so sucky!! some grp members r alright...but some...haiz...i was angry with 1 of them yesterday!!argh......

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haiz....i miss my grandmother, ah ma...yesterday was her di(4) san(1) nian(2) de(4) ji(4) ri(4)....time really flies...it already had been 3 yrs since she left us... so i skipped CO in order to attend the ritual at the void deck under my grandfather's hse...well, it rained on and off...so we had to be fast to burn all those incense paper, paper hse n car in the empty field opposite, be4 the rain came pouring down again...unfortunately, it rained halfway thru the ritual...but...thank god tt the rain did not extinguish the fire...

haiz...ah ma, we will miss u and love u always... no matter where r u now...

ahahaz! finally i can b back home at this time! all thanks to Mr Lim n Mr Koh for not having extra lessons! yay...haiz...my temper getting horrid day by day...haa..easily get irritated by even the most trivia matters...i mus learn to hold n control...

well...i didn't blog for quite a number of days le...coz i'm really busy n always reach home late...sometimes, i dun even hav the mood to switch on my comp, too tired to listen to music...worst of all, i dun hav the strength n mood to sing....i remembered tt i used to sing wheneven i'm feeling low...but now? i dunoe wat hav gotten into me...it jus not me...haiz...

so for now...i'm goin to get my cosy little afternoon nap...! see ya....

oh man...my holidays r jus like normal sch days...haiz...didn't get to hav much of a rest...nvm! sat i wan to slp until very late!!! wahaha....if not...haiz...very tiring...

haiz....another sucky day for me....slept less than 4 hrs yesterday....stayed up to revise on chem n phy...haiz...the tests were...haiz...i cant stop signing...how??!! my mood iis damn lousy...!shit man...eat alot these few days...i guess it's mayb due to stress.....consumed lots n lots of junks!!! n i'm goin to stop frm today onwards until i'm back to my original weight... feeling fat now....haiz...DENISE U MUST CONTROL N STOP MUNCHING ON MOONCAKES! coz they r a killer for ppl who wan to maintain their weight...haiz...i think my CA4 also gone case liao....really feel like crying man...i've got no life at all.....oh man....haiz..................................i'm so tired....so exhausted n feel like slping n not waking up...haa....jus wan to hav a gd rest....yes...i jus need some rest...

haiz...die la!! 2 sci test on sat!!! how am i goin to finish studying all of them???!! somemore there r still pw stuffs to rush...most probably i will b burning midnite oil again tonite.......haiz...feel like...haiz...dun feel like writing le............